それは私が声を聞く唯一の方法である

This is the only way I hear your voice....

When the sky turns gray
when caffeine turns to adrenaline
when one violates rules that were made by equal contemporaries
rules that ultimately men created themselves.
There must be a grand design
somewhere in this place
or where others like me dwell.
When missing someone is just plain cliche
and yearning for a person's presence can be eliminated by unspeakable liaisons.

I have granted myself unwarranted possibilities
in this form of escape I have buried all my burdens
and moved on to unforseen spaces.
I won't tell you how the story ends
but I know that in time I will get all my answers.
I crave for something which will never come to me.
And I have learned to control all my anger.

I long for that non exsistent being
he who will never come
but has slept beside me when I was alone.
I will never be tied down anymore
be caught up with someone else's miseraries.
I won't take orders from anyone.
or be killed by useless accusations.
I will wait for my time to come
and hold on to my shadow...

where I embrace all that surrounds me.
Living or otherwise.