Being in the dark...

Having been raised in a "restricted" environment exposed me to apparent dangers where one might have not expected. I am catholic, supposedly raised by a religious order, believes in Hell, the lightbringer and oftens finds myself wandering in the dark. I have bled already. I survived. I sailed thru untoward incidents that have moved me into more treacherous situations. But the thing about me is... I have learned to fight back. I pray like the others do. I believed in God and I still do. But in times like these where I am weak and hardly able to get up, I just let myself sink into the depths of whatever pit I fall into and drown myself in hollow. Do you see me now?